With love,

Today will be one of those nights where I can't fall asleep. I'm just not tired and I have a lot on my mind. I'm not sad, in fact, I'm really happy with where my life has lead me and what I'm doing now. But it's the situations around me that are frustrating and I'm trying to figure out how to best handle them.

First of all, I've heard a few times this year that I've "inspired" people to do better things and while they started out doing them, once I changed our relationship they lost all motivation to continue doing those things. So I've watched over the past few months people do things that make me feel so disappointed. I feel so let down.

Second, I see people shutting down over small stupid issues. Life is hard. Everyone knows that. But ya know what? You find ways to deal and you focus on the good things or at least focus on what's best for you until you're ready to see what's good in your life. The last 6 months have really changed my views on life and what I should be focusing on and as much as I love my friends and try to help, I can only help so much unless you're willing to help yourself.

Blah blah blah. I'm too tired to write anymore. But you get the idea.

By the way, I am enjoying my time in Japan although I'm trying to figure out what to get for presents and how I'm going to spend my free time, as well as motivate myself to finish projects and papers. Wish me luck!